Long-Distance Relationships

My honest to god opinion? They aren't so great.

You don't know what's going on on their end, they don't know what's going on on yours. You put your heart out there to someone you don't know in person. It's a risky business, and if you absolutely know you can trust them with everything that you are, then go for it. If you think they're the one, go for it. Ultimately it's your decision to make. Whichever way you go, don't regret it. You'll laugh, you'll cry, you'll hurt things. It's what happens in lost of relationship be it friendship, or family.

as they say, Life's too short to live with regrets, so go out and live.

- Slipping Mentality

Losing and Sore-Winners

Seriously, just PISS OFF ALREADY!

I was wrong, doesn't mean you need to rub my face in it. You get to keep your girlfriend, and hey, i'll just lose another friend to a boy. Everyone wins now don't they? Everyone's friggen happy. Happy. Happy. Happy.

I wish you'd friggen stepped into my shoes. Just for one second, feel what I feel, see what I see. But, no, you're selfish. More selfish than me.

Just, piss off. Stop telling me how wrong I am. Stop talking to me all together. I've had a shit week. My emotional stability is screwed and your not helping one bit. Happy now? You use my misfortune and hurt to make yourself happy. At my expense? How hypocritical of you. How fucking hypocritical.

- Slipping Mentality

What? Another one?

Yeah, this one's from a while back, and I was just reading through it.

Don’t Wake Me Up
Don’t wake me up
From this dream.
The sun sets west.
The ocean shimmers
With the slightest of breeze.
His arms constrict,
Wrap me tight.
His breath a gentle whisper on my neck.
His skin is soft,
His body strong;
He keeps me safe.
He is my heaven;
He is my dream.
So, don’t wake me up.
I never want to leave.

- Slipping Mentality

Endlessly

This is not what I want.
I don’t want to feel
Like I’ve been stood up
And let down.
I don’t want my heart to beat fast
At the sound of your name.
I don’t want the pain
That goes hand-in-hand with the game
That you play with my heart.
I am a person,
I have a heart.
I have a dream, even,
Not that you’d know,
Not that you’d care.
You say those words
With emotionless eyes.
Do you care?
Have you ever, at all?
You still hold my hear,
Not that you’d know.
It won’t let you go,
It clings to you, so.
I guess I’ll have to bear
The pain I go through
For even though I know I can’t anymore
I’ll always love you.

- Slipping Mentality

patheticness

I'm pathetic, I admit it. And honestly, I know I'm not good for him. And I know that the distance between us will hurt us more than help. But, I guess your heart doesn't care, does it? It wants what it wants, and even though you know it's not good for you, you still long for what your heart wants most. I guess that's my problem, isn't it? And I don't know how to reconcile my mistakes. Yet, I don't know if I could take the distance, I don't know if I could take it if he shut off from me again. I'm not a good risk-taker, I play it safe to protect myself most times. I took a chance on that relationship and fate seemed to just want to ruin my happiness. In fact, fate took him as far away as possible, made it impossible.
I shouldn't still think about this, I know it's bad for me. But sometimes you just can't help it. Especially when you look around and see everyone else's happiness. People that have the one thing you want, but you've never had the chance to experience fully.
I guess that's life though. You can't win.

- Slipping Mentality

Peaceful

I never actually noticed how peaceful cemetery's were. The quiet, the stillness. It's soothing. Just sitting there, thinking, beside someone you've lost. It feels like they're still there. It feels wholesome, and right. It sit there, talking to thin air, but knowing that they'll listen.
I should go more often, maybe alone next time, so I can talk to Pop. Just talk. Tell him my problems, and my troubles, and feel the burdens slowly slip from my shoulders, flutter away with the cool winding breeze.

- Slipping Mentality

non-fighter

Have you ever felt like everyone was against you? Like, you have to stand on your own because you think no one is there to back you up? No? Well then, you must have a very happy life. I envy you. I envy your happiness. I envy your carefreeness. You've probably never even had a fight with your friends have you? Honestly, I don't fight with my friend either. I don't like fighting of any kind. Even when I don't agree with what's going on, I don't say so. I guess I just don't want friendships to fall apart. Call me a wuss, call me whatever, I don't give a rat's arse. I know I should say stuff, I know I should speak up when I don't agree, but I can't. Because if I speak up and say the wrong thing, then everything will go wrong. It always happens. So instead, I turn around, and argue with myself. I take everything out on myself. And whatever is pent up, I let it go at netball. Why, you say? Because it's who I am I guess. Because I'm a push-over.

Guess i'll just have to survive this way.

- Slipping Mentality

For an almost lost friend

This is a little diddy i wrote a while back for my friend. though now friendships are falling apart, i just really like the message this poem gives.


It's sometimes hard to keep smiling.
To show everyone that your fine,
That you're not hurting inside.
But you do.
You keep smiling.

But you should know
It's okay to be sad, or angry.
It's okay to cry.
You don't have to keep smiling and block the world out.
Someone will always be there to help you through.

Believe in yourself.
Never doubt who you are.
Doubt clouds your vision,
Disbelief withers away your soul.

You shine with a vibrancy unequal to others,
You brighten up peoples days.
Though it may not feel like this to you,
It's true.

Keep your head held high.
Stand up strong.
No one can bring you down.

- Slipping Mentality

Dictionary

Okay, my friends call me a portable dictionary, hey, it's not my fault i know more words than you do, just coz your a dumbass! ;)

so, new
Altruism -noun
1: the principle or practice of unselfish concern for; or devotion to the welfare of others. (opposed to egoism)
2: Animal Behaviour behaviour by an animal that may be to its disadvantage but that n=benefits others of its kind, as a warning cry that reveals the location of the caller to a predator.

Yeah, so dont ask how that came to mind, just be thankful it wasn't filthy sounding like that other word. "fornicate"

- Slipping Mentality

Pretend

I lie awake at night,
Pretending that you're here.
I pretend I can hear you voice,
Gently whispering my name.
I pretend that I'm in your arms,
Feeling warm, and safe, and loved.
I pretend,
That's all I can do.
Because it's the only way you're with me.
For now.
So, I'll keep pretending,
Keep whispering your name
Until you return to me.
That'll be the end of this game.

- Slipping Mentality

really sick of this shit

I'm sick of feeling the way I do.
My family is making me feel small and insignificant, like i can't make my own choices in my own life.

Secondly, I feel like I'm being lied to all the time. I don't know how, and I don't know why, I just do, and it's making me doubt myself. I don't like it. nope, not one bit.



Emotions and feelings are keniving butt holes.

- Slipping Mentality

i dunno...

I'm sick of feeling the way I do.
My family is making me feel small and insignificant, like i can't make my own choices in my own life.

Secondly, I feel like I'm being lied to all the time. I don't know how, and I don't know why, I just do, and it's making me doubt myself. I don't like it. nope, not one bit.



Emotions and feelings are keniving butt holes.

GUH!

My family is really pissing me off!!!!

I mean, Why can't they just trust me instead of coming up with stupid, ridiculous assumptions about my friends.



FOR FUCKS SAKE! let me live my life already!!!!!

- Slipping Mentality

reality sucks

Sam's moving to Queensland. You know how much that sucks? It feels like a stake has been plunged into my heart and twisted. I now know what heartache feels like. I wish i didn't.
I'm losing another precious person to me.

I hate these tears,
I'm sick of crying.
I want you by my side.
I'll never get to see you,
It makes me ill,
To know that i'll never feel your embrace.
Why is life so cruel,
It's taking me away from you.
Pain in my heart,
Never will it fade.
You are my life,
I'll never want anything else.

- Slipping Mentality

One of those days

Ever notice how some days start out really crap, but end really well?
Well, today was one of those days.
Took my brother to footy out whoop whoop. mum and dad had a fight.
Mum and I went into Ballarat and had KFC. I told her a little bout my beau, planted that seed in her mind. Didn't quite get around to telling her that i said yes to him asking me out, I'm sure she's figured that out.
I got home, was bored out of my brains, then he came on. He made my heart stutter, and my tummy flutter. Imagine that.
He wrote me a little rhyme, and dedicated a song to me. I mean, is that sweet or what?
SO that got me all sappy, so i wrote what i posted before. amazing the ways that other people can make you feel.

well, rambling is always fun, but i tend to do it way to often.
I just know that I'll be having sweet dreams tonight.

- Slipping Mentality

Sappy Feeling

Only one holds my heart, as complex as it is. He'll figure out the puzzle, put the pieces together, and make it beat again.

- Slipping Mentality

Despair

I'm going out with this guy who lives 2 hours away from me, he's really sweet and stuff, friend of a friend.

But, how do you tell your mum that your in a relationship with a guy you haven't exactly met?

Confusion beyond belief.

- Slipping Mentality

Stares

Looking out my window pane,
Watching the world walk by with sad eyes.
Longing to find that one person.
If I sit here long enough,
Maybe he will appear.
So, I keep staring.
Waiting for him.

- Slipping Mentality