patheticness

I'm pathetic, I admit it. And honestly, I know I'm not good for him. And I know that the distance between us will hurt us more than help. But, I guess your heart doesn't care, does it? It wants what it wants, and even though you know it's not good for you, you still long for what your heart wants most. I guess that's my problem, isn't it? And I don't know how to reconcile my mistakes. Yet, I don't know if I could take the distance, I don't know if I could take it if he shut off from me again. I'm not a good risk-taker, I play it safe to protect myself most times. I took a chance on that relationship and fate seemed to just want to ruin my happiness. In fact, fate took him as far away as possible, made it impossible.
I shouldn't still think about this, I know it's bad for me. But sometimes you just can't help it. Especially when you look around and see everyone else's happiness. People that have the one thing you want, but you've never had the chance to experience fully.
I guess that's life though. You can't win.

- Slipping Mentality