Pretend

I lie awake at night,
Pretending that you're here.
I pretend I can hear you voice,
Gently whispering my name.
I pretend that I'm in your arms,
Feeling warm, and safe, and loved.
I pretend,
That's all I can do.
Because it's the only way you're with me.
For now.
So, I'll keep pretending,
Keep whispering your name
Until you return to me.
That'll be the end of this game.

- Slipping Mentality

really sick of this shit

I'm sick of feeling the way I do.
My family is making me feel small and insignificant, like i can't make my own choices in my own life.

Secondly, I feel like I'm being lied to all the time. I don't know how, and I don't know why, I just do, and it's making me doubt myself. I don't like it. nope, not one bit.



Emotions and feelings are keniving butt holes.

- Slipping Mentality

i dunno...

I'm sick of feeling the way I do.
My family is making me feel small and insignificant, like i can't make my own choices in my own life.

Secondly, I feel like I'm being lied to all the time. I don't know how, and I don't know why, I just do, and it's making me doubt myself. I don't like it. nope, not one bit.



Emotions and feelings are keniving butt holes.

GUH!

My family is really pissing me off!!!!

I mean, Why can't they just trust me instead of coming up with stupid, ridiculous assumptions about my friends.



FOR FUCKS SAKE! let me live my life already!!!!!

- Slipping Mentality

reality sucks

Sam's moving to Queensland. You know how much that sucks? It feels like a stake has been plunged into my heart and twisted. I now know what heartache feels like. I wish i didn't.
I'm losing another precious person to me.

I hate these tears,
I'm sick of crying.
I want you by my side.
I'll never get to see you,
It makes me ill,
To know that i'll never feel your embrace.
Why is life so cruel,
It's taking me away from you.
Pain in my heart,
Never will it fade.
You are my life,
I'll never want anything else.

- Slipping Mentality

One of those days

Ever notice how some days start out really crap, but end really well?
Well, today was one of those days.
Took my brother to footy out whoop whoop. mum and dad had a fight.
Mum and I went into Ballarat and had KFC. I told her a little bout my beau, planted that seed in her mind. Didn't quite get around to telling her that i said yes to him asking me out, I'm sure she's figured that out.
I got home, was bored out of my brains, then he came on. He made my heart stutter, and my tummy flutter. Imagine that.
He wrote me a little rhyme, and dedicated a song to me. I mean, is that sweet or what?
SO that got me all sappy, so i wrote what i posted before. amazing the ways that other people can make you feel.

well, rambling is always fun, but i tend to do it way to often.
I just know that I'll be having sweet dreams tonight.

- Slipping Mentality

Sappy Feeling

Only one holds my heart, as complex as it is. He'll figure out the puzzle, put the pieces together, and make it beat again.

- Slipping Mentality

Despair

I'm going out with this guy who lives 2 hours away from me, he's really sweet and stuff, friend of a friend.

But, how do you tell your mum that your in a relationship with a guy you haven't exactly met?

Confusion beyond belief.

- Slipping Mentality

Stares

Looking out my window pane,
Watching the world walk by with sad eyes.
Longing to find that one person.
If I sit here long enough,
Maybe he will appear.
So, I keep staring.
Waiting for him.

- Slipping Mentality