random crap

Well, hello there blog readers, if there are any of you, but i'm pretty sure there isn't. And if there is: I'm sorry you have to put up with my complete babbling.
Anyway, work is going good, when there are nice people working with me, of course. Let me tell you this: the guys are sooooo much nicer than the girls.

I'll be there

When you're feeling down,
When your skies are grey,
I will always be around.
I will hold your hand,
I will be your strength,
I will be anything you need me to be.
This is who I am,
What I'm here for,
and I'd never leave your side.
When times are tough,
and hope is lost,
I'll be the light to guide your way.
Together we'll fight,
Together we'll fall.
Together we will stand tall.

It sucks that much.

I don't like being at home. It doesn't feel like home. It doesn't feel safe like it's supposed to. It feels desolate. There's no joy here. It feels so lonely.

I get so lonely when I'm here. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being verbally abused by my brother when I don't do anything. I already have low self-esteem, and when he yells at me, it plummets. I hate being here. I hate feeling like an outcast. Everywhere I go, I'm alone.

I don't just read because I enjoy it. I read so I don't feel alone.

Maybe, I'm spose to be alone. Hell, my best friend rarely talks to me.

I hate this.

- Slipping Mentality

Long-Distance Relationships

My honest to god opinion? They aren't so great.

You don't know what's going on on their end, they don't know what's going on on yours. You put your heart out there to someone you don't know in person. It's a risky business, and if you absolutely know you can trust them with everything that you are, then go for it. If you think they're the one, go for it. Ultimately it's your decision to make. Whichever way you go, don't regret it. You'll laugh, you'll cry, you'll hurt things. It's what happens in lost of relationship be it friendship, or family.

as they say, Life's too short to live with regrets, so go out and live.

- Slipping Mentality

Losing and Sore-Winners

Seriously, just PISS OFF ALREADY!

I was wrong, doesn't mean you need to rub my face in it. You get to keep your girlfriend, and hey, i'll just lose another friend to a boy. Everyone wins now don't they? Everyone's friggen happy. Happy. Happy. Happy.

I wish you'd friggen stepped into my shoes. Just for one second, feel what I feel, see what I see. But, no, you're selfish. More selfish than me.

Just, piss off. Stop telling me how wrong I am. Stop talking to me all together. I've had a shit week. My emotional stability is screwed and your not helping one bit. Happy now? You use my misfortune and hurt to make yourself happy. At my expense? How hypocritical of you. How fucking hypocritical.

- Slipping Mentality

What? Another one?

Yeah, this one's from a while back, and I was just reading through it.

Don’t Wake Me Up
Don’t wake me up
From this dream.
The sun sets west.
The ocean shimmers
With the slightest of breeze.
His arms constrict,
Wrap me tight.
His breath a gentle whisper on my neck.
His skin is soft,
His body strong;
He keeps me safe.
He is my heaven;
He is my dream.
So, don’t wake me up.
I never want to leave.

- Slipping Mentality

Endlessly

This is not what I want.
I don’t want to feel
Like I’ve been stood up
And let down.
I don’t want my heart to beat fast
At the sound of your name.
I don’t want the pain
That goes hand-in-hand with the game
That you play with my heart.
I am a person,
I have a heart.
I have a dream, even,
Not that you’d know,
Not that you’d care.
You say those words
With emotionless eyes.
Do you care?
Have you ever, at all?
You still hold my hear,
Not that you’d know.
It won’t let you go,
It clings to you, so.
I guess I’ll have to bear
The pain I go through
For even though I know I can’t anymore
I’ll always love you.

- Slipping Mentality